Give Me Tears
Written January 2006
Last night I was thinking about some of the losses I've experienced and other things which would inspire tears... and realized that I have cried very little in a long while. More important, though, is that I have repressed sadness, sorrow, and remorse over people and experiences, that is for the last 5 years or so. Previous to that I was a sprinkler (at least in private). I believe deeply that there is healing, hope, forgiveness, and comfort that God releases to those who will truly and genuinely feel. I am earnest in my desire to be genuinely sorrowful over the losses and pains I've known, and regarding my sin. The Bible, I believe, affirms this in distinguishing between "godly sorrow" and "worldly sorrow" when talking about repentance in 2 Corinthians 7.
I also received word that a new friend has experienced a great loss -- his adopted daughter's mother was killed in Oakland last week. He and his family are freshly grieving. I have known this man, Larry, only a short time -- we have led worship together on a couple of occassions and once I have had the privilidge of sitting under his guidance as a worship leader. Out of his need to grieve, He asked me, via a mutual friend, to lead worship with him this Friday at Beulah Prayer House. He had committed to lead worship at their prayer meeting but now he is attending for much needed prayer and ministry from the body of Christ.
Out of these two fresh needs this song "Give Me Tears" was written. It is an expression of my own desire to genuinely cry and feel sorrow and to receive the outflow of godly sorrow... which is hope, comfort, repentance, and joy. It is also an expression of my concern for my friend and his family and their need to genuinely grieve so that they may be comforted.
Sorrow to deep to be felt
Hides in the depths of my heart
Sadness for the past that I've lost
Make me cold in the deepest parts
Give me tears, give me tears
For the losses I've gone through
For the pains old and new
Give me tears, give me tears
For the sin I've held onto
For the ways I still hurt You
Give me tears
Bring the breaking, O God
Bring the breaking, O God
Let me feel again, deep, down inside
Let me feel again, deep, down inside
posted by fusek330 @ 2:37 PM
2 Comments:
jason, i really like the words of your song. my favoriate part is:
Sorrow to deep to be felt
Hides in the depths of my heart
Sadness for the past that I've lost
Make me cold in the deepest parts
"the past i've lost" sounds like it doesn't make sense, but it really does. you were with me when i had my big cry in utah. it was a definitely a deep healing experience for me. i had another really deep cry after my relationship with ruby fell apart. again, it was helpful. so yes, i agree with tthe "cry" of your heart.
Yes, the cry of my heart is for deep healing, deeper than perhaps I've experienced in quite awhile.
In talking with others last night, I realized that I was discounting the "cry's" and godly sorrow that I have experienced in recent years because it hadn't necessarily produced the fruit or results I wanted. But that is not how God sees my heart.
Like your experience in Utah, mine will probably come when I least expect it and I will not get to choose the timing or place. Perhaps I'll have many smaller cries instead of a big one, I don't know. This scares me 'cause there are very few places where I would want to have a breakdown... but God is God and as long I'm with Him and His children it will be okay.
I do remember the glorious results of your "cry": deep healing in your life and revival in both Utah and our youth. We were all one big pile of tears and snot together. That was quite a ride.
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